A Nobody...

I am not a poetess
But I would like to write a poem about you
about how you made my Grey sky Blue
and how deeply I feel for you

I am not a singer
But let me sing a song for you
A lullaby to shelter your night
as you sleep tight
and as you dream about heaven tonight

I am not a comedian
Though I love to see you smile
To hear your laughter from a mile away
to make sure your pain is cast away

I am a NOBODY
but let me be SOMEONE in your eyes
to fill up your days with tenderness
to guide you through every trials
and to dry your every tears....

dedicated to,
my nieces
Elvira Lauren and Euphrasia Lara

MY poem entitled : Would you still look at me?

(This is just merely a mirage of feelings coped inside of me, Questions on life, love and everything that is incorporated with this beating heart. Judge me not, Mock me not on my words.. but read and relate, for there is nothing greater than the feeling of 'understanding')

Would you still look at me?

If this smile turns upside down,
If this soft forehead gets ruined with frowns,
Would you look at me?

If these eyes no longer laughs,
If these cheeks are wet with tears,
Would you look at me?

If this gentle voice stops to whisper words of love
If this lips no longer give you warm kisses,
Tell me, Would you look at me?

And what If time devour my youth?
If the spring time of my life goes away,
and this given body wrinkled and crippled out of exhaustion of life,
My beloved, Would you still look at me?

If my maker calls my name,
If my body is finally rested underneath in dirt,
and these footsteps no longer mark the paths in this earth,
Will you still look at me?


by.
esther dks
10th May, 2010

May 7th, 2010

Dear Bloggers,

Hey, what's up..? Felling kinda great today, it is 5.38am as I am writing this blog. Last observation is over, and I am so glad that the remarks were good all the way. I am so thankful and grateful! Yeah!

In a way, I kinda miss mom and dad. Feels like it has been a long time since I last contacted them, I hope they are okay. I miss my nieces and nephews too... They are a pain in the ass but they are still dear to my heart.

Now that the final observation is over, I am anticipating the time to go home. I got a lot of stuff to take home and I am starting to wonder, how on earth am I going to take all these things back home. Sigh, I guess that is what happens when you are here for a while...

I miss my tapirs... Things have not been the same lately, but I am still hoping that one day, we will all sit together for breakfast at Seaside, I miss that moment...Growing up is not easy, now that I am grown up, I finally earn to say that with understanding this time hehehe Muah!

May, 6th 2010

Dear bloggers,

Getting tired of spending moments on thinking of the title of the blog, I decided to settle with dates instead, haha! I was about to fall asleep, but I couldn't, hehe I must recap the incidents that happened today. My class was during the 1st and 2nd period.. I don't know what happened but what I remembered was I was in the class, and nobody even bother to give respect. I stood there for a few minutes, still there was a loud noise in the class, some chinese boys were still not in their seats, watching basketball outside the classroom, some girls running around, even the class monitor and the assistant were chattering like a bunch of chirping birds on a tree, NOBODY EVEN BOTHERED TO LOOK AT ME!
I whacked the table as hard as I can and still there was this bugging buzz they made, I walked to the students at the back and whack, whack, WHACK!!!! I said, 'kurang ajar eh, cikgu di depan u made me invisible', I was so angry at that time. WHat happened? they were not this 'rude' before this! and some girl frm the class still can say, " teacher, jgn la garang sgt!" really made me feel like slapping her. I ikhlas, is getting worst!
I wonder what should I do.... sigh.......