The Reader,supposedly earlier post hehe but i dozed off

Hey bloggers;

I would like to start off today;s entry by proudly announcing that today is the start of Hari Raya Break. I am heading off to Seremban this evening. Now, the time is approximately 2.11am as I write, both roomates are sound asleep. All I can hear is the silent sound of night and the ceiling fan spinning over my head.I have just finished watching a movie called "The Reader" starring Kate Winslet(she won the Best Actress for this) and Ralph Fiennes. A story which I think is worth watching and it is not really that heavy but also not quite light too. I enjoyed it especially the main theme held close by Hannah, PRIDE. She didn't get the chance to learn to write and read but refused to admit it to other people. For that reason, she blindly enrolled herself as a guard in a fugitive camps whereby she chose 10 women everyday to be killed to make room for new women who arrived at that camp everyday. She took the blame of writing the report for an incident in the camp and she knew the other guards took chances on her because she was illiterate. She admitted because she wanted to keep her pride.

Now, have you ever felt like there's only one thing that you have in your life and you know that you need to protect it? That was the case for Hannah. Lastly, tingu sendiri...hehehe



I'll continue later.

Tick Tock Tick Tock

Today is just another ordinary day, another Tuesday in the month of September. Got up slightly earlier today, slept in around 1am the night before, aahh well, bored with nothing to do. I skipped 1 class today (wink**wink), this week’s classes are just a drag on for me. I’m not the one who is fasting for the whole month but, it’s the holiday break, who the hell wouldn’t be happy about it? Hehe.

            My mind is “EMPTY” I don’t really have a lot inside it nowadays. This is good because it helped me to sleep earlier night time. Late afternoon today, a student (who shall not be named here, but I love u dear, you have me with you always) cried over the phone. She must have felt alone and she called me for comfort, I guess, man I dunno! But it kinda sucked coz I can’t be there for her.

            Mo chat with me and called me today, trying to patch things up again. He’s just so busy and sick and bla bla all the freaking time. On my side, I guess I had to understand, he seemed like a pretty nice guy, and he’s a friend in need too so…leave it to the hands of time and GOD.

            There’s something spooky going around this house but I’d rather not say. Just hope that everything will be ok.

            Lastly, tick tock tick tock.. I hear the clock ticking…holiday is just around the corner… LOL

tOdAy...

hey.. short one today... it was a regular day.. except being extra warm than usual. I got up late, rushed our way to QSS and couldn't fit into the fireman uniform for the activity but screw it, I laugh anyways (despite the fact that there's one bitch's mouth I so long to slap but couldn't coz I was shocked by the remark she made about me, f*%# u!) Anyways, I don't want to dwell in that.
  I bought a pair of new tube and spaghetti stringy and a pack of kuih bangkit kelapa for albert and the gang for hari raya in Seremban. Spent quite a lot but I don't know on what else.. from 100 bucks, I went home with 40 bucks.. Shaitts.. never mind..
  So... tomorrow I'm going to KL, I need to get out just for a few hours, I cant stand it here anymore!!! Sigh.. not in the greatest mood nowadays, I don't know why but I try not to show it when I'm in class. Talk when I want to at home...
  I miss mom and daddy. I miss my nephews and nieces back home who calls out "Mommy Ther!!!" whenever I reached home from work.. LoL... I hope I will have a good time out tomorrow.
 PEacE

One more done.. 3 more to go...

        Today was a tiring day for me and I believe it was a tiring day for Nel and another 2 members of our group. Didnt get the chance to go back so we were out from 8am til 6 in the evening. I guess our activities went out okay, despite the fact that there were only 4 of us working it out til the task was done. Oh GOd, I'm glad it's over. Now I still have 3 more asFREAKINGsignments to go through.
       Frankly speaking though, I find it really hard to do the assignments. You see, last time when I was doing my undergraduate, EVERYTHING WAS IN ENGLISH, and NO, I'm not saying that I am so superb in it, it's just that, it was english and literature. The language that I am comfortable expressing my feelings with and LITERATURE, the reason that I was able to express whatever that I think, coz there was no right or wrong answers...only right or wrong grammar.. lol..
       Today mom called. I miss her so much. They just came back from Kota Belud to attend the trial for my brother's divorce case. I better not start to bitch about the person who turned my brother's world upside down, I'll just trigger more hate, I DONT WANT THAT.
       Listening to this hymm, I just wanna say I miss God. I use to talk to HIM all the time. I don't anymore...I hope I can change that..
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       Just a moment ago, Nel told me our friend, Ankadeem got into an accident and currently in ICU. I feel so shocked and sad, drawing towards the dawn of hari raya, then tragedy happened to him and his family...I will pray for him tonight... God bless him.

Need to get out..

Hey, woah.. looking at my last post.. it has been quite a while since the last time I posted something... I don't know really. I have been pre-occupied with assignments and also with some other stuff that I cant recall. What I know, for the past few weeks I've been through massive stress, compulsive anger, demonic hatred, ultimate sadness and jolly happy. Damn, time flies just like that and it's a pity I cant jot it down now, memory loss perhaps? *wink*wink*
Allowance is the 'in' issue nowadays. The DPLI's demanded on getting allowance, frankly speaking, including me! Picture this, 1 year with every month receiving your 1k++ salary and suddenly, back to school and zero entry in the bank! Moreover, the parties involved agreed to give us the allowances the latest before raya, but til now.. bad bad news. However, I still feakin hope it will, atleast before I leave town.
Amy is going to deliver sunshine soon. I kept dreaming her saying 'It's time, It's time' so, maybe it's going to be sooner than expected. I told her, animal instinct, or mother's instinct, I am familiar with but Best Friend's instinct.. haha
A need to break free.. I'm tired of Tg Malim, tired of Perak, tired of looking around UPSI and I just crave to get out! I cant wait til next week. I want to get out ...

Missing Home

    To start with,  I didn't have the chance to blog yesterday because of the assignments that I had to do. All of the weeks before this went by and I was really taking my time leisuring at home, minding less on the things I was suppose to do.. NOW, the 8th Freaking week of my study here in Perak, I suddenly feel  "Crash-Boom-Bang" all over. Submit this, Submit that, Do this and do that.. Well, it was my freaking fault that this happened, if only I started analyzing things to do earlier, it wouldnt freakin' be this way.. sigh...

   I miss mom and dad. Kept thinking about them lately and though I don't talk about them all the time, I always think about them; what are they doing, have they eaten lunch, is daddy okay? Is mommy busy cooking?. Imagining her practicing her dance steps is always something jolly to see, u know. (LMAO) On the other hand, dad is always with his own things to do since Elvira and Lala are the ones who controls the Astro and the remote control... He hardly spends his time watching badminton matches on TV. I miss the "uuuu's" and 'Aaaaaaa!!!'S" dad does whenever the player scores or made mistakes.(HEHE) Mom is always busy with something. Most of the time, she spends her time in the kitchen. Cooking, reading, writing the Sunday masses announcements and so on. In the evening, you can hear my nieces and nephews playing with each other. Shane's laughter when he calls out 'YAYA'(actually LALA), asking her to play with him. All of them, running around the house in the twilight of the day... As the night approaches, I would get ready to ride the night, the night is too beautiful to stay indoor.. haha.. or was that just another excuse to go out? lol

  Yes, I miss home. Life here is ... hurm.. empty.. everyday goes by and I face everyday's little challenges but above all, I kept thinking of home, where life actually began...